| Doubt. |
[Dec. 7th, 2009|12:35 am] |
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If man is able to see the future, what's God?
If man is certain about the future, what's God?
If man is willful about the future, what's God?
If man is perfect in his plans, what's God?
Then what is Love, Faith, Trust, Hope, Wish, Salvation and God? |
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[Nov. 28th, 2009|03:13 am] |
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feeling weird and insecure.
back from the pylons and mountains, finally... |
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| a song, a day... |
[Nov. 7th, 2009|09:27 am] |
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Day 1 . If You Didn't Love Me, Corrinne May
Day 2 . 7 Things, Miley Cyrus
Day 3 . Love Story, Taylor Swift
Day 4 . Lovebug, Jonas Brothers
Day 5 . Lucky, Jason Mraz (featuring Colbie Caillat)
Day 6 . Same Side of The Moon, Corrinne May
Day 7 . You're Beautiful, James Blunt
Day 8 . All I Have To Give, Backstreet Boys
Day 9 . I do, 98 Degrees
Day 10 . Accidentaly In Love, Counting Crows
Day 11 . So Beautiful, Savage Garden
Day 12 . True Colours, Phil Collins
Day 13 . This I Promise You, N'Sync
Day 14 . Sway, Michael Buble
Day 15 . Here With Me, Everyday Sunday
Day 16 . Just Wanna Be With You, Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens
Day 17 . The Way I Love You, Taylor Swift
Day 18 . Got Me Going Crazy, Jonas Brothers Day 19 . In Your Arms, The Last Goodnight
Day 20 . Breathing For Me, Everyday Sunday
Day 21 . Try, Asher Book =) for you baby. love the last song?
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| loves |
[Nov. 5th, 2009|12:51 am] |
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| | love story - taylor swift | ] |
don't know whether did you felt it this way too...
was the nicest and tightest yet gentle tuck you've did on my arms in the bus.
felt so loved and precious to you when you did that.
have been missing you out for so many long and weary days,
finally got to see you and hold you in my arms.
not the presents and gifts that i love, is you.
no one else had ever been this sweet and thoughtful to me, besides you.
what else more could i say baby?
you're my all in all. =)
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| haaa-loww-ween NOT |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|10:53 pm] |
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| | I Do - 98 Degrees | ] |
Feeling something's missing somewhere, somewhat, somehow.
Everytime when i look into the sky, out in the jungle, at the moon and stars...
Kinda wondering if we're looking at the similar one at that moment.
Everytime when i close my eyes, out in the dark, trying to rest...
Kinda held back my tears all the time, wondering if you're missing me badly as i do.
Everytime when i think about us, out under the blue sky, figuring stuffs out...
Kinda need some assurance to supress my fear.
afterall, guess i'm just thinking too much and getting too ahead of things till i've lost my focuses. sorry darl. |
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| 1 down, 3 more to go. |
[Oct. 25th, 2009|11:28 am] |
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training for this week's tedious, pathetic and ardous. plus, more of these shi* are installed for us.
kinda sensed that something's not too right somewhere. trying to figure it out but failed to due to my fatigue and incompetence. speaking up is not easy, i know. but really glad that at least hints and tones were dropped for me to pick it up. however, i've failed to sense it soon enough and didn't remedy it as well. =( will try my best and i'll promise my best for you darl. love ya baby. |
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| No doubts. |
[Oct. 11th, 2009|10:13 am] |
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| | Asher Book - Try | ] |
Always wanted you to know, which and what ever things and efforts you've been giving and putting in, it's worthwhile. Never have i felt so real and loved by someone whom i love too and hold closely. It did definately evolved into a next level. But all i know is, my past is never gonna repeat nor hinder us now. Doubts and uncertainties you may have in me and even yourself, however, I'm all for nothing but you now and forever more. Why am i this certain and sure? Cuz' i have faith in you, in us. And i've never ever did ever once doubted our genuine affections for each other. Loads of your first times with me i'm sure, definately none are regrets. Could i ask for your trust? =) |
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| Back to Civilization |
[Sep. 26th, 2009|04:19 pm] |
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| | Good Love - Poison Kiss | ] |
Mini Rangers, that's what they've called and referred us to. This week practically felt like as if it was the entire 9 weeks of BMT. Did the impossible of navigating total of 100km both day and night in Tekong. Commando's Full Battle Order, it was as much as 20+kg of load all together. Resting and sleeping hours were compromised once more. Feeling almost dead now. Really draining and killing me. Bruises and swells all over. Just booked out, booking in tmr @2145hrs again. -.- the feeling of no freedom sucks...
Dreamt, missed, and all. Every tough moments, every stressful moments, every draining moments, every killing load... you are the one whom i'm thinking of. The Source of my perseverence, the source of my endurace and the source of my encouragement. Love you loads my dear. =) Can't do this army shit without you, definately can't do any shit in my life now without you. =) xoxo. |
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| hey darl! |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|03:34 pm] |
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|03:31 pm] |
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everyday's this sweet, lovely and nice... only with you around...
kinda scared and worried that you'll be worried and scared... |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 13th, 2009|11:10 pm] |
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| | Every Man - Casting Crowns | ] |
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[Sep. 12th, 2009|10:46 am] |
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| | 10 million fireflies ??? =) | ] |
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| unrest |
[Sep. 12th, 2009|09:06 am] |
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POP-ed
so what's the big deal?
what's next?
leader's course?
after that then?
money?
that important?
what is life then? |
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| timidity kills |
[Sep. 5th, 2009|02:16 pm] |
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loads of guts during training, in field, at camp.
but what all it seems about me is, a wussy in life.
ain't decisive, ain't passionate, easily convinced, highly doubtful, frequently tempted.
can't seem to open myself up, can't seem to speak up.
everything's choked up inside me like a blocked sewage.
all stuffed up smelly, dirty, messy and nasty.
God's been good, but i'm doubting myself yet again.
where's my resolve? just all words, texts, hugs and nothing else?
Where Am I Standing???
where can i pour all these out? where can i feel that i'm not all alone out here?
where am i? where are you? |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|11:56 pm] |
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| | pensive | ] |
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| | twinkle twinkle little star | ] |
wad will the feeling be like?
loads of doubts in life,
yet loads of enjoyment to it.
wad will the future be like?
loads of choices to make,
yet loads of rules to follow.
wad will i become?
loads of planning to do,
yet time limits the execution.
wad will it be like?
loads of consequences to face,
yet holding even more responsibilities.
it takes 2 hands to clap but one to SLAP. |
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